9th folio piece. Completed June or July 2008. This is also one of my favourite pieces, but at the same time its the saddest and most depressing in all my folio.
This is the other piece I found to be quite popular in the exhibition, it really impressed people, because of its realism, and how bold it is.

As I said this is the saddest and most depressing piece. This is because at the time I came up with the idea for this piece (still is now) was all my closest friends were in happy successful relationships, and to me its a very strange feeling to be the the odd one out. So I started doubting myself as whatever I was trying with girls at the time and in the past had not worked, so I started feeling lonely, like I had no-one to talk to about it, becuase I didn't want to talk about such negative things to my friends who were doing so well in their relationships. So this time was very depressing and inward self critisizing of myself.

I learnt a lot about myself in this piece, that often I look at things in the worst possible way, sometime exaggerating them far beyond what they are.

The pose was symbolic of looking up for that special someone, in the night sky, all along. Wondering if there is someone out there, if so where? Which is reflected in the quite depressing poem I wrote in biology class one day. Today I really don’t like reading it because it’s so negative, and depressing, I wonder how and why could I write something so depressing and self critical. But it really does add a lot of meaning to the work.
Poem - [link]

This piece to me is probably the best black and white drawing I've done, as the effect of chiaroscuro really worked well, and I feel I achieved a good sense of form and realism, especially in the face. Also shows my growth and development from earlier pieces such as flat attempts of portraits, and anime.